Seeing people change for that one person. Whether it’s to cutting down their smoking habits or to stop doing drugs and maybe even something small like to stop swearing. It just proves that when it comes down to it, they would do whatever to see that person happy. Stopping habits is a hard thing to do and to see people actually doing that for someone’s love is really attractive to me.
even if theyre not a couple. friends too.
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I hate it. That really gross feeling. Where you feel so disgusting but you don’t know why. Everything starts to stress you out, including the stupid petty things that play next to no relevance in your life. You start to over analyze, and everything just gets so complicated. The moment where you just hate yourself a lot more than usual. Everyone and everything just pisses you off. You get mad at every little thing and you feel bad because you know that it’s no body else’s fault. So, you end up distancing yourself. Everything is off. The mind starts to play tricks, makes you think everything hurts. Every breathe gets more difficult to take. You want you cry, but that’s stupid cause you don’t know what you would crying about. You’d do anything to just make it stop. Most of the time you just stop thinking about it. Kind of like putting your mind on hold. The moment where you’re living but you’re living an empty life. But you do it so often that it builds up. It becomes so overwhelming, everything just becomes worse. Day after day, its all the same, it’s all a blur. I don’t know what’s going on. I just want it to stop. I just want to sleep. For a long long time. To be able to wake up and have everything be forgotten.
It’s so hard for me to talk to you knowing you feel like this. It isn’t even right for you to feel this way and still stick around. I’m tired of knowing that you aren’t happy, I want you to be happy more than anything. I want some time to prove to you that we can make this work and it’ll be worth it. I don’t know how else to explain myself so you’ll understand how I’m feeling. It really sucks cause it just gets harder for me, but it’s so easy for you..so what do I do now? I wish you could just let go and forget about everything and feel the same way again. :’( How can you all of a sudden wake up one day and decide you don’t want me anymore? I just don’t get it.
The hell are you doing talking behind my back…if you want to talk to me about something, just talk to me about it.
